Sedikit selfish ~ Can you relate?

Unlike lecturers of yester years sorry kalau stereotype, I believe more is expected from lecturers zaman sekarang. My parents were both lecturers, my mum in UKM, my dad in UM. However, I honestly can not imagine bringing up 4,5,6,7 children in this day and age, whilst simultaneously striving for career success. Something has got to give. One needs to make a choice; one cannot achive both. Especially if one is a Yummy Mummy wannabe. Daddy boleh lah kot sebab bukannya daddy yang mengandung, menyusu, nurture anak, struggle with weight gain etc. Tapi ini career Mummy, bukan Daddy. Mummy penat kerja which also requires juggling action. Mummy also needs to unwind. Mummy needs her ME time.

A lot about being a lecturer is if you can handle stress associated with multitasking. That is the nature of the job. The level of multitasking however, really depends on your goals and ambitions. You can take it easy or work as hard as you want, it is entirely up to you. Di bawah adalah pangkat dalam kerjaya seorang pensyarah:


Tutor --> Lecturer --> Senior Lecturer --> Associate Professor --> Professor epitome of success in this profession.


At this point in my life my career is extremely important to me. And what exactly is career success you may wonder? In my books career success is achieving professorship at the age of at least 40, kalau ada rezeki and umur panjang... Tak pe la kot mengaku in public? Tak dapat tak apa, asalkan usaha. This is generally 10 years in advance compared to lecturers of yester years. Entahlah kenapa nak dikejar2kan sangat. Sedangkan I am relatively young compared to my colleagues. I am 32 this year. However, anak baru dua orang.

"Bila nak tambah lagi?"
"Tak kan dua orang je kot?"
"Umur semakin meningkat".
"Adam dah besar *hint*"

Ikutkan nafsu hati, boleh tak kalau aku nak tunggu dapat naik pangkat jadi Professor Madya dulu? It won't be long anyway. Jangan la kacau momentumku...

Walaubagaimanapun, saya sedar bahawa tanggungjawab sebenar isteri dan ibu adalah di rumah bersama anak2, mendidik anak2. I always have conflicts with myself, guilty sebab mengejar cita2 dan guilty sebab penat and therefore malas dan juga garang. In my mind Ibu2 mithali walaupun berkerjaya although I also wonder how successful they would be in their careers akan meluangkan masa memasak untuk anak dan suami, bermain bersama anak serta mengajar anak mengaji, menulis dan membaca serta membaca buku cerita kepada anak2. Ye ke? I am sooo not that person T_T.

When I get home I will spend some time catching up with the children about their day, cuddles, huggs and kisses then its time to Exercise/FB/Work not necessarily in that order :P. My children and I will have parallel activities, whereby I will do my work, my girl does her homework/activity books and my boy plays with his trains. They will all be close beside me la obviously. OK la kot?

"Yang susah Aida tak payah buat dulu sayang. Nanti Teacher ajar".
"Adam, pergi main toys or watch your movies sayang".


Sekarang tambah satu lagi selfish activity: Blog. How?